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The blog is dead, long live the blog

12 Aug

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I recently read a comment on facebook that my blog is dead. It really surprised me. I suppose I have been in denial, I was thinking it was perhaps in repose. An extended vacation. As it turns out, if you don’t actually post for months at a time, your blog is kinda sorta dead.

But here’s the deal: It’s not. I really had to take a lot of time off. Things happened. I’ll list them. They impacted my life in a really big way:

I left my really good job for an amazing opportunity and immediately got laid off. Then I had very little work, which was a blessing, considering what happened afterward.

  • I stopped being married.
  • I volunteered at a wildlife museum.
  • One of my sisters died.
  • I adopted a snake.
  • I moved three times in a short period of time. I’m not a fan of moving.
  • I was offered and accepted my dream job.
  • I got a new baby brother.

 

Lots of life events. Big, huge, heart-breaking, emotional, heart-filling life events. Because even when life feels totally over, it’s actually still going on. The blog is not dead, it was in hibernation. Frankly, right now, I know I will not have the time that I had before to devote to it. But I will always have a story to tell, it’s in my blood.

My baby brother is 3 months old. He won’t know how to speak for a while but if you observe him for just a few minutes, you will notice one thing: He’s trying really hard to tell you something, (it’s in our DNA, really.)

Here he is:

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And here I’ve been:

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Oh, you noticed the hair’s gone. It’s all part of letting go and being available for the story to continue. The week I decided to cut my hair, I was asking one of my girlfriends if I should do it. I told her I’d miss it. I knew I would. And that was exactly why I cut it. Because it’s ok to miss it. It’s ok to miss my sister, or the routine I had with my ex. It’s human. It’s ok to miss my friends and coworkers. Missing means I cared.

We miss, and we let it go. We make room for the next amazing thing. I didn’t lose my husband when we got divorced, we’re still friends. But I made room for his new love in my heart and she’s such a beautiful and amazing woman, she’s become one of my best friends. My family got bigger.

When my sister died, I found out I was going to have a baby brother. Life is so unexpected and full of surprises. Around the same time, I adopted a ball python that needed a good home. I changed his name to BooBoo Cuddlebear. He used to hang out in my hair, back when it was long.

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And all the while in the silence of my blogosphere, I was still wearing clothes and having fun. See?

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There will be more. There’s plenty to catch up on. See you soonly!

xo, f

 

 
 

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  1. Todd MAdsen

    August 12, 2014 at 8:49 am

    Not dead indeed. Such inspiring and thought provoking words. Open and honest, telling us such personal things – things which many of us (myself) needed to think about as they relate to our own lives, but seemingly needed prodding from f. Thank you Fa.

     
  2. Jts

    August 12, 2014 at 6:56 pm

    Wonderful to see you are back. I only discovered your blog in the last month. I was sad to see it seemed to have ended. I added you to feedly before I Realised there had been no recent posts.

    I am sorry for your loss, but also so happy for your newest sibling.

    I look forward to more posts in the future

     
  3. Jill Brod

    August 19, 2014 at 11:41 am

    You’re still top on my bookmark list….I won’t give up on you. I’m just happy to have you speaking to me again.

     
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