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Fake it till you make it

26 Oct

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I’m not advocating you lie or mislead anyone. I’m talking specifically about the practice of practicing. This came up in a class I take recently, some participants were unclear on the supposed implications of deceiving another. The idea behind faking it until you fully realize it is the earnest commitment to a particular value system.

For example, I have been shockingly unladylike behind the wheel. I have been but I don’t want to be. Since tapping into my saintlier side hasn’t always quite arrived to me with the ease and grace I’m working towards, for lack of better terms, I have faked it. At times, I have expressed my passionate sentiments and then retracted it. Other times, I have found enough space to consider and censor what I might have said, thereby amending it before verbalizing it.

Ladylike in paisley ruffles and a vegan moto jacket.

Ladylike in paisley ruffles and a vegan moto jacket

Lately, I find that I often, though not always, have no reaction. After all, I’m not in bumper to bumper traffic by myself. We’re all in it together, no single driver is responsible for this, no particular individual is out to get me. But I had to fake it a lot to get to this place. I practiced being the person I wanted to be until I became it.

Rockin' out with my still amazing 5 week old haircut

Rockin’ out with my still amazing 5 week old haircut

There I am, in traffic, hanging out until I get through it, preferably with some good tunes coming through the speakers. And yes, I’m that person rockin’ out by herself in traffic. In her paisley dress and awesome haircut.